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November 14 幸福的纪念日 在生日那天，发生了一点意外，幸福的小意外。
一切似乎都不大真实，但手心的温度是真切的感觉到了。
是开始吧，对吗？
今晚，望着这平静的湖面，静静地听你在说关于你的事情，的确有点难受，但更多的是希望你开心点，和勇敢一点点。我真的希望有一天你会发现生活其实是很colourful的。
你是一个特别的人，最起码我是这么认为的，所以，我心里已经有了一个小小的决定了，我们要一起努力哦！
我们都要勇敢一点点！ November 12 11.12： 我21岁的生日 今天，是自己生日，这是一个心情很复杂的生日，很压抑，很感动，很疯狂，很开心，很难过的一个纪念日。心情有点沉重。。。
为什么会难过？或许是可能要同时面对多方面的离别吧，人的生死宿命，手足间的分散，感情上的飞蛾扑火。。。是的，我承认自己的不勇敢，面对一切的结束忽然而至的时候，我做不到笑以面对，很多时候很想放弃坚强，让自己在悲伤中颓废。。。但却有深知这样的不好，会让对我有期待的你们失望，但现在的我，对不起，无法坚强。
但是生日的点点滴滴的感动，幸福，感动我还是好好珍惜，深深地烙在记忆的石头上的。
部门的聚会上，当你们忽然捧出蛋糕的那刻，真的很surprise；当熄灯望着蜡烛为我唱生日歌的时候，感觉真的很幸福，第一次有这么多人一起为我庆祝生日，也是第一次，有那个人为我庆祝生日；收到师弟师妹很真挚的祝福时，感觉到作为师姐的幸福；走在凌晨的街道上，几个女生对着有点荒芜的街道大喊出心中的不快，任由凉爽的秋风迎面而来；在k房唱着曾为你准备的歌曲，虽然你已不在；
或许我是自私的，但是，我从不是不问结果的人。现在自己的迷茫是因为没有答案，所以猜想，犹豫，苦恼。。。但这一切都将在今年的生日上结束。
飞蛾扑火，死而后生！
Today，the begining of my new life! November 09 Lettre d’une inconnue (Letter From an Unknown Woman) By the time you read this letter, I may be dead. I have so much to tell you and perhaps very little time. Will I ever send it? I don't know. I must find strength to write now before it's too late, and as I write it may become clear that what happened to us had its own reason beyond our poor understanding. If this reaches you, you will know how I became yours when you didn't know who I was or even that I existed.
Yes, I was blushing, and hard as it may be for you to realize, from that moment on I was in love with you. Quite consciously, I began to prepare myself for you. I kept my clothes neater so you wouldn't be ashamed of me. I went to dancing school. I wanted to become more graceful and learn good manners for you. And so I would know more about you and your world, I...I went to the library and studied the lives of the great musicians of the past. Though I was not able to go to your concerts, I found ways of sharing in your success.
What I really lived for were those evenings when you were alone and I pretended you were playing just for me. And though you didn't know it, you were giving me some of the happiest hours of my life.
to be continued~ November 04 之后。。。 《荔园大讲堂--我与校长面对面》，一个在我生活中带有转折点色彩的活动，一个曾经让我很想放弃的活动，一个曾经让我感觉孤独奋战的活动，一个给我带来无数感动的活动，一个让我得到肯定自己的活动。。。最后一个我能为你做些什么的活动。。。
当和校长握手时，校长开心地说“活动很精彩，成功”的时候，很想哭；当很清楚这是你最后的一个活动时，很想哭；当看到可爱的师弟师妹围绕在身边静静的听我说话的时候，很想哭。。。
很清楚这个活动的意义，知道它意味着什么。。。但是对我而言，它的意义很简单，这可能是我能为你做的最后一件事，所以，不能让你失望，不能不完美。。。
一直以来，只是希望你能快乐，一直也只是这样。
活动结束了，那一天也快来了，一切都将结束了，是解脱的时刻吗？或许吧！
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